I realised something was wrong about a week ago, my mum and I went to have a check up but the scan showed there was nothing wrong, a strong healthy heart beat and a cute little picture to take away with me and show Tom.
I guess i feel a little angry about that now,a week later and the same little room confirms I have lost my baby.
I am going to let myself cry for as long and as much as I feel I need to. It is very much a part of me now and although I know it is a fairly common occurrence it doesn't make it any easier.
One thing I have realised however is how much I am loved. I don't know what I would do without my family and friends and even though Tom's heart is breaking too he has done nothing but look after me and try and make it easier.
I decided to post this here as l found it really helped when I read other peoples stories on the Internet. Its maybe not right but hearing other people going through the same pain does actually make you feel less alone.Less to blame.
Though such a short part this is now part of my story and I am going to take a bit of a break to let it soak in and to grieve. xoxo