I have to say January 2011 has pretty much extended December 2010's suckyness..I know January is never a great month, and the 24th surpassed itself in being statistically the most depressing day of the year! Monday involved me winning the battle of not crying at work but then losing the battle of not crying on the train/to Tom/to my mum..it was great to reach the end of this week.
I hope I don't seem ungrateful or self centred when I write about negative feelings..I guess I know alot of blogs keep up a standard of only writing about positive things and I think its really great how they can maintain that, after all we all have bad days right? But I guess for me I like to use my blog as a therapeutic place to say how I feel about things (good and bad). I'm lucky that for the most part they are good (and of course I'm not about to go sharing every last detail of my most personal thoughts and feelings.)
I love sharing with you all the cute and inspiring things I have seen or am experiencing but I wouldn't be true to myself if I didn't say that the past five weeks have been the hardest in my life so far.
I have previously suffered from depression and anxiety and it concerns me that I could end up heading that way again. I think mental illness is something people should talk about and not be embarrassed of..its just being ill, like any other illness, like breaking your leg or what have you. Its not your fault.
I'm lucky I have people I can talk to, I'm (so) lucky I have Tom and my family and my friends :) I think I am going to slow down a little for a while too, take it easy and look forward to our very soonish holiday to Barcelona!
Anyways - Friday night involved drinks with friends and a much needed unwind..one or two glasses of wine soon turned into four large glasses, whoops! I am still paying for that one! And today we went to feed the ducks
Hope you all had a lovely weekend (thanks for listening) xoxo