As I write this I am looking at pictures of my close friends new born baby girl. Born six minutes into mothers day and just perfect. I have to admit to having a little cry as I held my three month old and showed him pictures of his new friend to be whilst he dribbled down my arm (teething).
Wilfy was kind enough to gift me a beautiful little owl badge whilst his papa made me a delicious mexican type egg dish for breakfast in bed.
A blogger friend of mine was recently criticised as a mama for the things she says on her blog. Whilst her experience of pregnancy and birth differed from mine I have always appreciated her honestly. Often we can look at lifestyle blogs and think that life must be perfect for them, they mustn't ever argue with their partners get exasperated at their baby or resent their lack of sleep and the dark circles under their eyes.
I have always tried to keep this blog very real and true to me, that has included divulging very personal to me expericenes such as miscarriage and problems in breastfeeding etc. So here I am getting real again.
My mothers day we argued. Since returning home from Wales Tom and I have bickered and snapped at each other. This resulted in a big heart to heart on Sunday in which we both admitted our wrongs and are resolving to make a conscious effort to make things a little smoother. No one said having a baby was easy and we are trying to work out the changes in our relationship. It's all too easy to let yourself get cross, to blame and to snap. It's harder to stop and think about the situation 'is this issue worth getting upset about?' 'will I still feel this way this evening/in an hour?' I am vowing to think more positively about situations and remember the bigger picture before letting negative thoughts get to me. What matters the most is the love we have for each other and our little family.
Being a mother is the most overwhelming and intense feeling I have ever had. I am still learning every day. I feel like I have grown so much these past three months, I have never worried/cried/loved and laughed so much or so hard.
Thank you Wilfryd Cadno for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you Tom for being so supportive and such a fantastic father.
SO on this mothers day post I guess its fitting to say I've decided to add myself to the 'top baby blogs' list. If you enjoy reading my words then it would mean a great deal to me if you could vote for me! thanks so much xoxo
p.s thank you Ellen and Ruth for helping Tom tidy the house for my return!