Tigerlilly Quinn: A Collection

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

A Collection

Sorry for the absence, it was unplanned but much needed.

Thanks also for your kind comments on the post below, I will get round to replying to each (and from the post below too) shortly. Your words mean a lot to me and I appreciate you taking your time to write on here.

After I wrote that post on Friday my headache worsened it became a migraine, dealing with a six month old and a head that's pounding so hard you fear you will be sick isn't something I want to experience again soon. Tom returned home from work with pain relief (cooling strips and ibuprofen) he also bought gifts (a Cath Kidson dress and new Octopus mug!) and thanked me for all my hard work with Wilf and I started to feel semi human again within an hour or two.

The next couple of mornings when Wilf woke at 6am Tom took him and let me sleep in until 9am (that's three whole hours in a row people!!). I must have actually fell into some kind of real sleep as I even had dreams those two nights. It was nice to come downstairs to see Tom and Wilf eating together and having their own quality time without me. I can envision that at some point in the next few months when the space between him wanting to feed grows longer they can start to enjoy this more and more (and I can enjoy some time alone!).

Yesterday I was finishing off a commission at a cafe (illustrating the bathroom this time, blog post to come). The cafe is shut on a Monday and as it is a baby friendly cafe Wilf had full range of all the toys, he even managed to get out his Bumbo on his own and make his way across the floor to pull all the books of the shelves (oh my). He was fairly content amusing himself at the venue whilst I finished working which I was hugely grateful for but refused to sleep more than 40 minutes the whole day and cried a lot of last night. I know he is at a stage where he is on the cusp of doing some big things (crawling, he is so very nearly there) and it must be very frustrating for him but the past week or so have been such hard work.

I hope these changes happen soon because I am beyond tired. I am fully aware that his sleeping may not improve until he is well over a year and whilst sometimes that makes me want to cry I think how fast this past six months has gone and know it wont last forever. And whilst I have been complaining a fair bit lately I appreciate how lucky I am to be the position I am in to spend this time with my healthy happy baby and the opportunity to be still doing the other things I love in life to (here and there).







1, Some flowers Tom bought me last week
2, Little
3, me
4, Our giant cat (Wilf and him currently weigh the same amount...) and our unfinished kitchen , our house is full of DIY to do

11 comments:

Amy Edwards Green said...

I can't begin to imagine what it's like to have a baby, so I can't offer any words of wisdom I'm afraid, but you seem to be doing an absolutely wonderful job! Sending well wishes to the three of you!

lou said...

I can assure you that 6 years down the line with my 2 boys.. the DIY is still not being finished. I don't think it ever will. Don't sweat it. Enjoy some rest days.. xx

lornapips said...

Hello. I just started reading your blog, and your last post I completely identify with. I am mum to a 6 month old baby, and also work as an artist (although I haven't done ANYTHING since he was born - I have no idea how you get the energy!!) Herbie, my little one, is the love of my life, but he has had sleep issues since birth. Sometimes I can be awake every 40 minutes...sometimes I get the luxury of 3 hours. It is just he and I, and sometimes I am just so tired I don't know what to do with myself. And then I speak with my friends who have older babies and they quite rightly tell me to try to savour these times, even though they are hard, because our babies will grow so fast and we will never get these moments back. This train of thought does work for me - hard as it is to focus sometimes!! Hang on in there!! Sending you all my best wishes

Sarah said...

I don't think you need to savour these moments as such. I think that is the very point. You will do automatically when you look back. I had a hungry feeding boy too. I think I started to get more sleep at about 8/9 moths when he started to crawl. It's not the same for everyone, but my oh my when it comes along it is SOOOOOOO good! I can now say he (finally) most of the time sleeps right through. And that is when the real madness sets in and you start considering another!! Enjoy your freelance life though. I know how good that is to be able to do both without having to pay for childcare or leave Stanley for too long for others. We are lucky mamas some days!!

Keepapi Creative said...

Oh sweet mama! I so remember those days. It is hard, so hard to function on such a riduluously low sleep level. I can't promise any immediate relief, but just wanted to say that, it does, eventually get better. At least it did for all 3 of mine. Sending you lots of healing love & restful sleep. One thing that did help me, when proper sleep was a vague fantasy, was to do a half hour guided meditation/visualisation type thing on my iPod. It allowed me to rest deeply enough to be a bit more restored. I still do them now. xx Jacs x

Kate said...

I completely understand how you feel, lack of sleep is like a form of torture isn't it? It will get better though, I promise you . I know it's what everyone says and it's little comfort at the time, but you are laying the foundations for Wilf to grow into a happy confident little man. And you are doing an amazing job! Jolly well done you x

Tigerlilly Quinn said...

@Amy thank you! its hard but worth it, although I have a few days like this that make me doubt myself..but I'm back on form now x

Tigerlilly Quinn said...

@lou ha! thank you xx

Tigerlilly Quinn said...

@lornapips your situ sounds so similar to mine! At first W would only sleep for 40 minutes, I felt broken! but your right, it will pass :) x

Tigerlilly Quinn said...

@sarah that sounds like a dream..I hope its true (although I'm not expecting any improvment until after a year and if it comes then it will just be a unexpected surprise!) ..and yes madness I told Tom yesterday Wilf was going to an only child ;) xx

Tigerlilly Quinn said...

@kate, thank you so much for saying that x

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