The other day I yelled. A basic exasperated 'arghhh!!' rather loudly, aimed directly at my son. It's the first time I've ever done this to his face and we both took a second to be a bit shocked. I then left the room to compose myself and tried and failed to return with renewed patience. Mothering a two year old can be hard sometimes.
Don't me wrong I've certainly used stern words, told Wilf off or repeated exasperatedly that he needed to 'hurry up' 'not throw food' 'give me a second whilst I complete a task' but I've never really shouted like that before.
In hindsight there were lots of things I could have done to have stopped myself getting frustrated to a point where I couldn't stop myself yelling. Trying to pack orders, reply to emails, get a suddenly fashion conscious boy dressed and ready to leave the house and make a picnic! I need to remember that something has to give and I don't want it to be my patience. Those order's should have been packed in the evening, the emails could have waited another hour and maybe I shouldn't have given in to a request of three shoe changes and two T-shirt changes before 8am.
As it was we had to compromise and yet we still left the house on the sunniest day of the year with Wilf demanding to wear his wellies and not his sandals. He also left the house having drawn all over himself, the table and his play mat in the blue sharpie that I was using to write on orders and that will.not.come.off.anything.
And so what do you do with a morning like that? Well you go get a coffee for starters, lovely lovely coffee. Then you meet up with some good friends, their adorable/frustrating toddlers and you give them an Easter egg hunt in the park (because chocolate is just what they need ;))
As usual what we both needed was to get out the house and do our own thing for a little bit. Whilst the kiddo's ran off together to play on the slide and sandpit the mamas compared notes on how contrary a two year old can be. Then we gushed about just how wonderful they are too!
This parenting thing is always going to present new challenges to overcome, every so often I am going to feel frustrated or a little out of my depth but for the most part I just feel thankful I get to experience it all, even the difficult parts! Whilst I may roll my eyes at the tantrums I also cannot wait to tell Tom each evening of all the amazing, wonderful and funny things we did together too, me and my little boy.
P.S Hope you all have a lovely Easter sunday!
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