Lately, I've spent more and more time without make up. It's been so hot in the South West of England that the idea of it makes me feel a bit hot and bothered and I've just been rubbing in the sun lotion and leaving the house.
I know some people might be rolling there eyes that that's even a *thing* but really it's quite a bit deal for me. I'm not saying I'm usually caked in the stuff but I do rely on a bit of foundation, blusher and a lick of mascara and eye liner for my daily routine. It's my shield and as soon as I put it on I feel 'ready' for the day ahead.
When I was a teenager and university student my relationship with make up was a unhealthy one. I suffered from bad skin, used it to cover up the bad skin and suffered for worse skin as a consequence. I put make up on as soon as I awoke every day until around 11pm at night, even if I never left the house, I was so worried about anyone seeing me without it.
I met my first serious boyfriend a few weeks after I turned 17 and was probably at the height of my insecurities. I was so terrified of him seeing me makeup free that I would even reapply make up before I went to sleep and wake up earlier so that I could wash it off without him seeing and reapply more. This lasted the whole five years we were together and was completely a reflection of my body issues than anything he thought of me, I just couldn't bare the idea of make up free me.
In so many ways motherhood has changed me and being confident about who I am and what I look like is one of them. I've totally re-evaluated what is important in life and whilst feeling 'pretty' is important to me I've also learnt that I can still feel this way with or without make up. Like I said it's kind of a big deal for me.
Can anyone relate?
p.s as a afternote, I've not totally given up on make up, actually I love make up and think it's really fun but am glad I'm in a place I don't feel I NEED it. :)